He's choose his life tat way, each decision he takes was a choice of his own, no one asked him to no one forced him to... He's really selfish!!!
He decide to manipulate me even tho he knew I did nothing wrong simple to get what he wants d way he wants it. Boy was I totally in luv wif him. I didn't wanna see d sign. I cared too much bout taking care of his feelings hw dumb. He didn't even bother to think bout me when he knew it well enuf tat he's decision cud end d relationship. Destroy us. Maybe because he knew tat I luv him too much and tat I wudnt leave him for anything. Wut a sick thinking tat is. U hurt me like million times when u accused and scolded me to cover ur own mistakes, u lied and u cover-line each time u do things tat I wudnt approve off. U break my heart over n over when u promised to change but u didn't.
I don't deny tat u do luv me much too. I wud be lying if I said u didn't and I wud be lying if I said tat I can't feel ur luv. U do care bout me n takecare of me like a princess. But ur two seperate life doesnt jive and u cudnt hold any longer to keep on lying to me. U kept me in a beautiful glass cupboard. No one can come close me, I see wut u want me to see, all d pretty stuffs. I hear wut u want me to hear, all d good stuffs, I know wut u want me to know, all d filtered things... Yea perhaps u do want to keep me by ur side but at d same time u knew u can't letgo of ur life n ur stupid fucking wasted friends. What good is relationship when I'm living if for real alone by myself. I've been with u for so long and till nw till this very end u can't prove to me anything in-fact at this very last moment u made a very big painful surprise for me, tats it, I had enuf of all this, its time to throw my Louboutin shoe...
And as I was about to leave for d very end u said "if I luv u, u wud change" wut a freaking joke! Haven't I luv u long enuf for d past 11 yrs. What part of tat don't u understand. I give up baby, I know ppl said not to give up in anything u do, but I hold on too long, I don't wanna think about all d things tat never were anymore...
Thanks for d heartbroken, thx for playing wif my heart. I know now tat u can't live without me, only coz having me around makes u feel good, u got me manipulated, lied to, and love u unconditionally, its like u always win when it comes to me, u feel good don't u. Well, itssokay being wif u will b like a charity to me, help n care for d poor. I'll letgo now n karma will catch up to u. Go ahead wif ur life, friends, party n drugs. I wish u all d best.
Luv
InvisibleDiva~
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