Choi Jong Hun : Anime Hwang Teja :p

Anime Hwang Teja ^^ I know I know, I know I can be a lil carried away and typical me :p

But seriously I do think that he really suite that nick. Just look at him. He looks so pretty and charming just like the anime series where you get the main character being the prince charming and just look simply gorgeous where his looks itself can strike you like a red rose with torn… hahaha ok ok I better stop it here haha
Anyhow, as of lately I noticed that Jong Hun has been dressing more towards smart casual a more mature kinda look, which I like it too... he looks good in anything I suppose.
Choi Jong Hun is from FT Island. Seriously I like him not only because of his good looks. I like him for his skills, his guitar skills. He plays guitar very well. And so his good looks is totally a plus ^_*

Watched FT Island concert video and totally love the group. I love all the members in FT Island. Hongki voice is totally husky and he is a good singer for definite. Jeajin is sooo cute, his voice is also nice love the FT Triple album too. Min Hwan is a great cute drummer :p hehehe. And Seung Hyun is unexplainable… there’s something bout him that is attractive (you know where u are drawn to see or pay attention to someone but you just cant pick out just quite what it is.. yeah that’s Seung Hyun …)

Any how, here a clip of Jong Hun and Seung Hyun playing guitar..



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Hope bites, and it hurts!

I've been away haven't I. I was bz with work and I was also occupied with my own wishful thinking.

I've been putting up quite a high hope to win this one competition... Coz I wanna win so badly... Unfortunately I didn't win it (T_T)
Seriously, what was I thinking... Me? Me out of 350ppl all around asia??? Wuts d probability? Almost near to nil for me (T_T)...

Shouldn't hv hoped too much for it. Unless I hv a special shooting stars passing by me, other than that I should really just let hopes floats.. (^_^)

Hv a great dayy...!

InvisibleDiva~

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Better complexion...

Meet up wif an old friend today. She told me I look glowy n better, complexion are much better...
Wow, really I feel so much better in side out since I let it go. So I guess what ppl said is true, if ur happy it shows, each cells in ur body vibrantly shows d emotions with in, well unless ur a great actor or actress u can cover with face expressions quite easily I supposed :)

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Out of ex-love depression...

This topic is one that is very close to my heart. Silly? But unfortunately its true. Here's d thing, considering my situation, hw cud it not b close to my heart:

1) Me, I'm a very loving person :p which means its difficult for me to really open up n let my heart b touched by sumone to own it. But once I'm in love, I don't even look at any other than The person.
2) I have only been in love and in relationship once in my entire 26 yrs of living. And that relationship started when I was in secondary school... like almost 11 years ago. And been together for 8 yrs to b exact, but somehow rather it drags for another 3 more yrs til this year and its 2010 and (long story cut short) in total 11 yrs. Yeah I know tats a pretty darn long period of time.

Well, its definitely extremely difficult to let go n move on. Especially when u hv him still calling messaging n etc, only to find out n learn d hard way that I'm perhaps in denial n he is just sore loser.

I seriously thought that I might not be able to get out of his love n move on, do u know hw many tears I've shed for him, suffering n tormenting, 11yrs dude...!

Hwever, I guess miracle happens, of coz d miracle comes with extra-enormous pain for me to realise and make d decision for me to finally say I'm DONE!!!
I feel much better and I feel lighter and I'm on my way to get out of that love.

I'm out of my ex-Love depression!!! Congratss to me!!! And for staying strong n not fallen back to him!!!

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Is there really any...

Heelo,
Yeah its been awhile since my last entry. I've been a lil bz sorting stuff in pursuit to make my life a lil less complicated and more organized. Haha
Ok here is what's lingering on my mind..

Is there really any good guy out there??
Yea technically of cause everyone is good, but I'm talking in a sense where can u really find a guy who's is not crocked n hv clear intentions, darlings personality, mature, loyal, smart, well rounded, doesn't take drugs, not booring s he knows his limits to everything, responsible, loving and not a womanizer yet straight. There...
For sure there's many out there, however its much easier to spot a gurl/ladies who have most of d criterias if not all, than it is to spot a guy/man who hv all of d above...
Well, just a thought of mine, not necessarily to b true...
Ok then, laterrr...

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The guys on TV...

OMG...! Hehehe
I hv serious major crush wif some guys on tv :p
well, its pretty much on youtube :p
I'm pretty sure this is normal for most gurls :)

Aaaaa if only, one of them is in front of me :) I can just flip!!!
Handsome but not too handsome, kind but cold, mysterious in someways, hard to get thru, yet known to all, but somehw has d eye on d one n only girl, open up only to her, was as delicate as a baby but only wif her, and fully devoted to her!
Cliche? Yeah I think so too.. But u kno wut, y not (^_^)


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Smile...

u make me smile like d sun,Fall out of bed,sing like d bird,Dizzy in my head,spin like a record,Crazy on a Sunday night, u make me dance like a fool,Forget how to breathe,Shine like gold,buzz like a bee,Just d thought of u can drive me wild,Ohh u make me smile (^_*) -uncle kracker smile-

aww this song makes me wanna smile...



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Did I make d rite decision...

At times I tend to doubt myself, my judgments and d decisions tat I make. Well obviously there's no rite n wrong in definite coz there's a million ways to look at things.
But seriously, I rarely jump into sumthing, I think a lot, even in my sleep my head is always thinking n processing, most of my frends n fam said I'm a workaholic come etc...
I think bout d decision I make n evaluate them over n over.

So, d decision to leave, is it d rite one?
To b honest I don't know. But wut I do know is tat staying is gona hurt and complicates my heart, so if leaving causes pain too, I really hv nothing to lose don't I. Both ways causes pain, d only differences are, leaving will b sans lying, sans bullshits, sans immaturity, new bad memories. Leaving is gonna open up more doors, new opportunities, new experiences and perhaps happy ending :p

Many personal reason, but d basic core is tat I cannot trust him anymore. Can't trust his sincerity, can't trust his words, can't trust his love, can't trust I will b ok with him tat he will b able to b d man.

I'm sorry I gotta letgo n move on, perhaps this is d only way to do, so for d time being im gonna throw it all out sumwhere...

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Can u really change...

Change, ya I believe one can change if they mean it and want it, not a simple wants but a DESPERATE want to live and save oneself, then yes tat person can change a be a better person.

He's choose his life tat way, each decision he takes was a choice of his own, no one asked him to no one forced him to... He's really selfish!!!
He decide to manipulate me even tho he knew I did nothing wrong simple to get what he wants d way he wants it. Boy was I totally in luv wif him. I didn't wanna see d sign. I cared too much bout taking care of his feelings hw dumb. He didn't even bother to think bout me when he knew it well enuf tat he's decision cud end d relationship. Destroy us. Maybe because he knew tat I luv him too much and tat I wudnt leave him for anything. Wut a sick thinking tat is. U hurt me like million times when u accused and scolded me to cover ur own mistakes, u lied and u cover-line each time u do things tat I wudnt approve off. U break my heart over n over when u promised to change but u didn't.
I don't deny tat u do luv me much too. I wud be lying if I said u didn't and I wud be lying if I said tat I can't feel ur luv. U do care bout me n takecare of me like a princess. But ur two seperate life doesnt jive and u cudnt hold any longer to keep on lying to me. U kept me in a beautiful glass cupboard. No one can come close me, I see wut u want me to see, all d pretty stuffs. I hear wut u want me to hear, all d good stuffs, I know wut u want me to know, all d filtered things... Yea perhaps u do want to keep me by ur side but at d same time u knew u can't letgo of ur life n ur stupid fucking wasted friends. What good is relationship when I'm living if for real alone by myself. I've been with u for so long and till nw till this very end u can't prove to me anything in-fact at this very last moment u made a very big painful surprise for me, tats it, I had enuf of all this, its time to throw my Louboutin shoe...
And as I was about to leave for d very end u said "if I luv u, u wud change" wut a freaking joke! Haven't I luv u long enuf for d past 11 yrs. What part of tat don't u understand. I give up baby, I know ppl said not to give up in anything u do, but I hold on too long, I don't wanna think about all d things tat never were anymore...
Thanks for d heartbroken, thx for playing wif my heart. I know now tat u can't live without me, only coz having me around makes u feel good, u got me manipulated, lied to, and love u unconditionally, its like u always win when it comes to me, u feel good don't u. Well, itssokay being wif u will b like a charity to me, help n care for d poor. I'll letgo now n karma will catch up to u. Go ahead wif ur life, friends, party n drugs. I wish u all d best.
Luv

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